Running...today...

So...I got up this morning...not wanting to run...but knowing I should. I've been frustrated lately because I've been working hard exercising, and eating relatively well with no change on the scale. I don't know when it became a numbers game on the scale but getting healthy is sometimes easy to measure on a scale...when you can't see what's happening in your body, the scale gives you some indication that things are changing and moving in the right direction. Well, for the last month or month and half I've been stuck between 156-157 pounds. I am so close to my 50 pounds lost goal. I know that I should be so proud of that and I really am...but I am not satisfied. I want to be really healthy...and I still have somethings I need to purge in my life to be where I want to be.



So...I went ahead on my run and was so glad. God has been speaking loud and clear to me. It began last night and in the front of Chad and I is a mountain of what seems impossible...the ability to sell our house. Our desire is to move out to more land and live a simpler (however, we know not easier) lifestyle. Getting back to basics is what we are thinking about. We had our house on the market last year to try to move to the Reservoir when Chad was working in Canton. Since then God has moved us in a different direction so I know that is why the house didn't sell last summer.



This time we are going to list it ourselves with God as our realtor. He has inspired this dream in us so I am fully leaving it in His hands because I don't have the energy to stress about it nor do I think He really wants that. I have seen Him sell our house before under worse circumstances...twice...so I have NO doubt He can do it again if its what He wants for us. Whew....that's a relief....burden gone.



Then I started to get excited because for the first time in a long time or maybe ever I can't wait to see how God is going to move in our lives. I have no idea what the future holds but I am so excited because I know God is in control and He has great plans. I am in anticipation and not anxious for once and that is a great place to be....



We are desiring to GREATLY decrease our material things and increase what God wants in our lives...I wonder why that is so exciting...but it is...



Today, as I was running....I had a choice whether to turn back and run a flat road or go in a forward direction towards my final destination and run up a hill. I knew the road behind me and that it was flat...I knew the hill before me and knew it would be hard. I went back and forth...back and forth...back and forth...was I feeling it this morning...then I finally decided God was telling me something...its okay to know the hill in front is going to be hard...don't go back to the easy way...go to the hill in front and I'll get you up there and over it...so I did. Was I fast? No. Was it easy? No. Did I make it over...YES....Life Lesson learned!



Then as I was running I would notice different smells in front of houses...its funny when someone is drying their clothes how you can smell their fabric softner. Some houses I passed it smelled a bit like well, dirty diapers....Sorry guys, I know...many of us have been there...then I started to wonder...I think we must be a little like that to God when our attitudes reflect Him or don't reflect Him...or when our lives are lived in His will or not in His will. I wonder do we smell like lavender to him when we are in His will for our lives or do we smell like dirty diapers when we are doing our own thing. What a real life lesson for me today...I'd much rather smell like the good stuff. I know there is a verse in the Bible that says something about this but I can't recall it right now.



Anyhow...on to school for today...It's going to be a good day!!!